Anxiety isn't any fun

Why do I always plan to do so many things in the holidays, but they never happen due to stupid fucking social anxiety. D:< I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate iiiit! I wish I could just not care and actually have fun in awkward situations that occur practically all the fucking time, man I'm angry right now, I got all ready to go to a pool party in Rangiora and got to the bus stop, but something made me turn around and go home...kjtcoijkhgnrcoghj

Blerrgh.

Last day of school for over two months eyifgbwjk yayyyy!! Went to the A&P Show, went on some super exhilarating rides, ate a snow cone, petted some Alpaca's and a Husky, looked at stalls, I had fun! Three exams next week, (dreading) but after that I'm done. I'm pretty glad I passed what I wanted to pass, and learned stuff during the terms. Next year I want to do level three art and design or photographyy, and make a shop selling stuff I make maybe. Moving into my new built sleepout in a week or two, it's so lovely in all it's cuteness! White walls, built in desk and wall to ceiling shelves, retro lights, wooden floor, french doors, nice porch, I can't wait to decorate it with my photos and ornaments. Whoops, longer than I thought... Oh well, needed to write my thinking!